Addiction revisited

It's been a few months since I last updated my nicotine addiction. Well, I'm still addicted. I've started to realize that it is a love/hate thing. I mean tobacco has always been in my life. As a teenager my friends and I would make up sayings about tobacco and we continue to recite them to this day. For instance, "Marlboro Light, smoke them all night" or "Marlboro Red, smoke them til you're dead". And as for Kodiak, "The only Bear you'll ever pinch", I would love to take credit for that but that was one of their clever marketing campaigns. I even bought a T-shirt that said that.
Anyways, a friend of mine and I were discussing quitting a few weeks ago and he called himself a "lifer". The term basically means that he'll be chewing tobacco until he's dead. That's a scary idea that is certainly a possibility. I tried to tell him that I was not a lifer but he just shook his head and mumbled something about denial and self-loathing.
Well I have not given up my plight to rid myself of chewing tobacco. I recently quit for 4 days, and if you are not addicted, the first week is the hardest. I consider it winning a battle but the war is still waging. I know that 4 days does not sound like much but I was doing great until I had to spend 10 hours behind the wheel of my truck plowing snow. As the old adage goes, "Without nicotine and caffeine, plowing is a lonely, desolate highway with no exit signs".
And so I used plowing as my excuse. And as some of you may know, having an excuse to buy tobacco is as simple as convincing yourself that water is wet. Alas my addiction is reborn.
I have come to the point where I am searching the web for support groups and alternative means of quitting. One good way for chewing tobacco users is to try and replace the tobacco with something like Herbal Snuff. It has worked for me in the past but I always end up finding some excuse to buy another can.
There are actually support groups out there like Kill The Can and Quit Smokeless but I have not come to that point yet.
In closing I am going to give it another shot, maybe some time in February. In the past I have quit for my Mom as a birthday present but how can anyone take me seriously if I continue to go back to Grizzly Wintergreen, the juicy "unsafe alternative to cigarettes".